As the sun began setting behind the trees, I was unbothered by the darkness falling on me that Friday night. I ran as fast as I could as I struggled to hold in the sobs slipping out. Over the years, running had become my escape, but never before had a run been so miserable. I felt helpless, angry, and afraid. Finally, when my heart felt like it would burst, I fell to my knees in the middle of the old country road a few miles from my home. Cows stared at me curiously from a few feet away, but I paid no attention to them.